My personal battle: Fear

Fear:
–noun

1.a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.

 

So you might ask what I have to be afraid of, right? This is very hard for me, to write it out, to put it all out there. I have battled through a lot of things in my life, too many to count but why be afraid? And what is it I am afraid of? Its a good question, and I deal with this at different times in my life. Sometimes I can just brush it off as a silly worry, other times I doubt if I will make it through whatever I am dealing with. 

The only thing I can say that could be a reason is that I am afraid of losing whatever is going well for me. Before I have  fought hard to get to accomplish something, feel good about it only to have it ripped away from me to feel helpless. This has happened over and over to a point that now, although things are going well, I still am afraid .

Its frustrating to feel this, I don't like it at all. I have always tried to be strong, and I have remained strong through some of the toughest things in my life, yet right now, I don't have anything to worry about. I have a lot to look forward to coming up, finally having a home that I own, a potential to start my own business and finally have control over when I want to go on vacation and not have to listen to others.

But here it is, poking at me, making me wonder when the other shoe is going to drop. Well its just something I need to deal with, I am a strong and loving person. I don't take no for an answer, I just look for another way to get to my goal. I need to try and stick to one thing at a time. There is so much I missed out on at times in my life that now I have the potential to accomplish, I want to do it all at once, because lets face it I am not getting any younger.

So here I go battling on, forcing my confidence to the front, because I will not let my fear win. Its just a slow process and I have to ask those close to me to be patient, because I know it will all be okay and I will get through this.

 

 

 

 

Ding dong Osamas dead! A warning to his network. You will go down!

A date that will never be forgotten, May 1st 2011. A day in history books that will carry on for generations. The beast who started an organization in 1988 met his end on May 1st 2011. Osama Bin Laden ordered the attack on the USA on September 11th 2001 that left our country in shock, panic, and sadness. He took away families and destroyed lives, and even put a dent in our economy. There is one thing he forgot about. This is the USA, we get knocked down but we stand back up and fight, guess he didn't know about Pearl Harbor?

We have one hell of a strong military, we have the determination to rebuild and stand together and we have a temper! Our military has hunted him down and its been an extremely long fight. Our soldiers lost their lives in the hunt, were injured in battles but carried on their mission, find Osama and end his life. They fought along other soldiers from other countries with the same mission, keep this from happening again and keep our families safe!


All I can think is that he must have been way too cocky to think he would never be found. We didn't drop an atomic bomb on him, but he got what he had coming, a bullet to the brain. That bullet that killed him , shot by one brave Navy Seal's weapon from a group of courageous Navy seals carried the names of those who died in NYC, Washington D.C. and that field  in PA. It carried the will of the families who lost their loved ones, the Police, EMS, Transit Authority officers and Fire fighters who worked together to find the remains of those lives that were lost. It carried the determination of our nation to find him and to destroy what he built.

On May 1st 2011, a great thing happened, the beast was taken out but we aren't done. That's right, our military will not sleep until his entire network in just a bad memory. So to those who plan to carry out his mission take note, the world is still looking for you, we stand together and we will wipe you out!


To those who died on September 11th 2001, may you Rest In Peace!